take the time to realize

August 12, 2008

So everybody and their momma is singing that Colbie Caillat song lately, but with every voice intended for somebody else. Okay, I hope not everyones mother, but you know what I mean. Haha. Well, maybe single mothers? Ahh I’ll shut up about that now.

Sometimes I wonder if I’ll always be “the boy who just isn’t enough” to “the girl who thinks she knows exactly what she wants”. I feel my heart may be cruisin’ for a bruisin’ but for some reason, I think it might be worth the fight. And honestly, that’s a first. But the fact that I even have a real new interest is a first. Real, as in someone whose qualities I should’ve been pursuing in the first place as opposed to some random, shallow little crush or whatever, you know? Anyway, here’s me wishin’ on meteor showers (at 12am tomorrow) that it won’t conclude with any form of hurt to or by either party. You deserve more. And I’ll genuinely try to treat you how you should be treated if you’ll let me. Maybe its too soon for a blog like this, but these are feelings that have been aching to come out; and besides, you all know that timing’s never been my forte.

Overall though, throughout any trials and any testings, Gods been blessing me with this sense of overwhelming happiness, joy; and I can’t help but smile and give Him praise. Oh, and I finally finished Ecclesiastes this afternoon. Awesome awesome awesome book. Now it’s time to apply what I’ve learned, and I’m sure that it’ll rip me (my perspectives, my heart) apart, while at the same time really strengthen my walk with God and place my primary objectives and trust in Him. At least that’s the prayer. :)

My iPod’s on shuffle and Death Cab’s “I will follow you into the dark” just came on; though some people find it somewhat morbid, I think it is one of the most romantic and meaningful songs I’ve ever heard. But maybe that’s just me.