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December 16, 2011

Commutes to and from LA used to consist of newspapers and books, now they’re iPads and headphones.

Watching out the window and quietly basking in the view of the bright lights and raindrops flying away from me as this train passes. Music video-directing in my mind; listening to Michael Giacchino’s “There’s No Place Like Home” from the LOST soundtrack on repeat and becoming an emotional wreck and tearing up like a crazy person for some reason. I don’t know, I think

I should be happier than this.


01. john mayer – 3×5
02. ingrid michaelson – keep breathing
03. regina spektor – better
04. the decemberists – o valencia!
05. shannon campbell – one week (acoustic cover)
06. mos def & talib kweli are black star – astronomy (8th light)
07. lauryn hill – ex-factor
08. common – be
09. janet jackson – together again
10. the weepies – suicide blonde
11. lights – drive my soul
12. priscilla ahn – are we different
13. jon maclaughlin – so close (enchanted ost)
14. sara bareilles – gravity

01. mos def – quiet dog bite hard
02. outkast – in due time feat. cee-lo
03. local natives – sun hands
04. cold war kids – hang me up to dry
05. the fray – how to save a life
06. jaymay – gray or blue
07. jason mraz – if it kills me (the casa nova sessions)
08. the frames – falling slowly
09. gabe bondoc – stronger than
10. alicia keys – lesson learned feat. john mayer
11. meg from disney’s hercules – i won’t say (i’m in love)
12. death cab for cutie – sound of settling
13. meg and dia – halloween
14. kanye west – street lights

01. across the universe soundtrack – girl
02. aj rafael & jesse barrera – she was mine
03. anjulie – love songs
04. she & him – why do you let me stay here
05. tilly and the wall – rainbows in the dark
06. coldplay – life in technicolor ii
07. rilo kiley – portions for foxes
08. snow patrol – chocolate
09. adele – daydreams
10. a tribe called quest – can i kick it
11. india.arie – can i walk with you
12. musiq soulchild – just friends (beat box mix)
13. tupac feat. nas – thugz mansion (acoustic)
14. nevershoutnever – trouble

01. castledoor – dumpster diving
02. bright eyes – the first day of my life
03. feist – mushaboom
04. dan black – hpntze
05. nujabes – feather
06. binary star – reality check
07. fleet foxes – white winter hymnal
08. kevin devine – alabama acres
09. cavil at rest – who knows, who cares
10. priscilla ahn – are we different
11. kings of leon – use somebody
12. the wonders – that thing you do (live at the hollywood television showcase)
13. imogen heap – hide and seek


August 10, 2009

well, i wrote your name and burned it to see the color of the flame, and it burnt out the whole spectrum, as if you were everything. mine just burned gold, a normal flame. i am not anything. and all that i remember is the feeling of waking up. we were kids, i was the sun to which your eyes would not adjust. we were kids, you were a fountain; i could never drink enough. then came all the boys that swept you up, and played careless with your heart. and every night there was a new girl sitting beside me in my car. something dies when you grow older, but you do the best you can. i am glad, i am glad you found a good man.

music: local natives/cavil at rest, bon iver, eisley, the fray, kina grannis, wilco, fleet foxes, of montreal, broken social scene, death cab for cutie, explosions in the sky, she & him, passion pit, incubus, tilly and the wall, matt costa | film (trailers): 500 days of summer, away we go, where the wild things are; watch these movies with me | books: hp and the deathly hallows, the time traveler’s wife, dibs in search of self, the perks of being a wallflower, | other: pencil and small notebook sketches of actual people; might add it to my drawings blog, walks around the neighborhood, random polaroids, ipods, pebbles

01. privilege 02. pardon me 03. nice to know you 04. anna molly 05. stellar 06. megalomaniac 07. love hurts 08. drive (acoustic) 09. make yourself (acoustic) 10. dig (acoustic) 11. redefine 12. a certain shade of green 13. oil and water 14. quicksand 15. kiss to send us off 16. let’s go crazy 17. wish you were here 18. punchdrunk 19. warning 20. aqueous transmission

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9:02pm: saw tweet, texted steph. steph’s phone was dead, she didn’t get back to me until after 10ish; looking back, there was no way we could’ve made it, but steph’s one-minute prep time (a first in the history of life) and almost-car crashes and empty carpool lanes and john mayer sing-alongs and the less than 30-minute speed-racer drive to hollywood will forever be memorable

11:51pm: get in line at hotel cafe in hollywood for john mayer’s semi-secret $5.00 show, walk by some indie chick peeing on side of alley

12:04am: the seductive face steph plans on using on john mayer; we find a secret way in through an unlocked door, then steph accidentally locks it by kicking it

12:21am: crazy old druggie man serenades/entertains the line with good clap beats, dirtay south gospel, and horrible horrible voice

12:25am: although wishing we could shoot our ears off, the scenic alleyway and vintage-y buildings make the wait almost bearable

12:30am: after taking in as much as we could handle of the old man’s audio torture, we give up, start walking around the block to search for good ol’ los angeles adventure

12:33am: as we pass the 2nd entrance, we spot a group of fans huddled near the door; we can totally hear john mayer, two new songs, then waiting on the world to change and neon; guitar solos and amazing voice make me want to fly forever in my mind they are so mind-blowingly good, remember why we love john mayer, makes me love l.a., makes me love this night, this trip

stephanie after hearing about john’s uncut hair: “i like john mayer’s head shaved.”
2nd grade level teacher, enthusiastically: “I like it long, more to grab on to.. rawr”

1:22am: after the set, we make like paparazzi and stalk john mayer’s car, pete wentz walks out seemingly unaffected by the actual paparazzi crowding his body; he seems like a nice guy and a jerk at the same time, difficult to read or explain

1:29am: steph and i chase john mayer until he gets into his porsche suv, man he is too cool; the trip is officially worthwhile, his body is a wonderland haha

1:33am: after pictures with newsstands which is apparently tradition for us now, we spend about 20 minutes on a wild goose chase for an old mexican man who has my car keys, we experience los angeles in all of its greatness, take in the smells

2:27am: toilet paper in our arms, we die, the end; nothing short of amazing
then again, it’s just another normal night for steph and i; we are animals